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Thursday, January 28, 2010

Tiring Thursday

Gahh! Today's such a tiring day! I would just explode if I did not speak to my counselor, Mrs. Tan yesterday. I couldn't see Mr. Low there. Anyway... They both are good. It doesn't make any difference. I just needed someone neutral to listen to me and advise me on what to do. Hooray that my thoughts are stabilized already! Mrs. Tan if you read this, thank you for the 45 minutes session.

Today, we have so many single subjects! It makes our bags super heavy! During Civics today, I can't believe that my teacher asked us to write 3 pages of homework due next Monday. It's really dumb to see myself doing something which is not about my ten-prior subjects! In fact it's dumb to see us doing that. But I've finished. The adrenaline rushed in my body at about 8.30pm while I was watching a gay Korean drama. Thanks to Mr. Adrenal in my body, I've finished all my homework of the day.

Reason number 2 why today is so tiring: Chemistry is the last subject of the day. Usually she takes a little extra time to finish her lecture... My friends and I ended up dumped by the bus driver. Luckily Kamini Jeya was kind enough to hitch me a ride back home. However... Today we came out a little early because we were doing experiment based on effects of total surface area on rate of reaction. (How ironic!) Anyhow, Gloria and I ran down from Chemistry lab to the bus. He didn't go yet. We both thanked God for giving us time. Phew!!!

Hmmm....... Tomorrow's plan is to cut my hair after school and then go back home to rest until 2.30pm and head for my Accounts class all the way to 6pm. Walk with Kamini Raja and Charlene in Pasar Malam after class (they're my classmates). Then...
10pm - Go to Salmah Beevi to throw Shaveen his Bon Voyage party. He's going back to Aussie on 31st January. What a clash... I didn't get to have fun with him when my gang went to Jusco last year as I was in Ipoh for the black parade. I don't know whether will I have time in the future...

Future is really dark and misty. Scary for me to think of my loved ones dying and crap like that. I should love them the most I can when they are still here then... Alright, I've to sleep now. It's already 12.15am. Till then, au revoir.

Tuesday, January 26, 2010

Now what?

Content warning: If you are having or about to have your meal, don't proceed. Hardcore content (I mean for the fainthearted people) is at the bottom of the page, after the story of my melodramatic mood.

I just need to tell these things out right here right now. I am not gonna keep it between Ooi Kim Huat and Ooi Kim Huat only. I makes me feel so odd.

So yes, I bought a POLO casual shoes for RM238.40 yesterday (Sunday) after my guitar class. Thanks, Dad. He'd provided me money for that price, don't blame me for being:
a) Spendthrift (it's a budget)
b) Big spender (it's once a year)
I am so sick of people in the world judging my every personal moves and I was told that I am seeking for attention? Blah, please! I'm tired of people accusing me so, with that. I rest my case and them think what they want because I can't stop the world from spinning.

If you wonder why on earth am I sounding like I am having PMS, now I tell you.

This morning when I went to school with a happy face, thinking of positive things and then suddenly during my Choral Speaking gathering after school assembly, my mood turned upside down on the spot.

The script was not really up to my standard as a conductor. You can call me arrogant or egoistic but... I would not think of conducting a team that is losing. I know we will, if we don't change the whole thing.

Now I need everyone to be with me, to give me moral support so that I can actually come out with a better script myself because frankly, this is an insult to me. I feel embarrassed from the inside. REALLY!

I think I need to see my school counselor again this week Friday, before my team's audition. Let's see what Mr. Low can do about it. I need to cry to him again I think. I don't want the old me to come up again.


That's the end for the sad part. Now for the hyper part:
We had frog dissection today. Thanks to Mrs. Christine and Puvanarubaan (he provided the frogs for us). Even though the experiment didn't really carry any meaning, it is a good exposure to the whole class on how does the INSIDE actually look like. It's really nice and the things I saw today was priceless.

Thanks to Mum that advised me to chant for them, which I did for 5 times of Great Compassion Mantra. I was not scared to cut them open after that because I was convinced already. Thanks again!

Me and Puvana just before the 'send-me-to-heaven' experiment.
He was the owner, but I dissected for him instead. He was shivering when he was about to cut off the heart from that frog.
The insides. The organs were so visible!

After the experiment, we did our black parade. First was the Islam procession (Hizairi took the lead), then the Chinese procession (Louisa took the lead), then again the Islam (because they left out some verses I think) followed by Christian procession (by Francine) and finally, Hindu procession (Puvana).

Monday, January 25, 2010

The -tion brethrens of terror

We learnt the horrible differentiation last year and today,
You got it right, guys. Integration! It IS the 1000% opposite of differentiation.
d/dx 2x you will get 2. And when you S2 you will get back 2x. How ironic... Anyway my uncle has told me that when I differentiate something and turn it 360 degrees, it means the world. Now I finally understood what he meant. Blah...

OK, today besides this terrible chapter. I have another bomb.
1. Morning assembly our principal knows that we are having our personal blogs and social accounts like Facebook. Thanks for those uber loud people in Facebook, now we are becoming less secured... Meh, I should not worry at all because I've not done anything bad. So, why bother?

Oh, crap. I've just realized this. I am getting boring. Just look at my blog posts now and then! I barely have anything to share here anymore. I just hope that He will give my sense humour back to me when SPM is over!

PS: Yesterday, I finally knew all my guitar mates in the class. It took time and perfect timing! And I still have 7 more staffs to go to finish the whole wonderful piece. Patience.........

PSS: The big S you see up there is actually sigma (that denotes integration). I can't find any perfect symbol besides the letter.

Thursday, January 21, 2010

First month

First month of form 5 is about to end. Sorry for not keeping you readers updated with my crazy life. Yeah, life's gay now. Uber alles GAY! Staying back almost everyday and with so many other things going on... However, I think I'm going to make it like how I have done it for the past 3 years.

Well, the 'UP' thing for the first month was during our second Biology experiment, heart dissection. Our first experiment was more to theory but that experiment finally made me understand what on earth does small sizes implements to large total surface area. How ironic, I can't understand things that WRITTEN.

Reason number 1 I prefer looking at my History AND Biology teachers rather than to read what they are talking about.

I seriously dunno what else to talk about, as you know... gahh, never mind. I'm talking crap. I think I have lost almost all my sense of humour due to reading books everyday. I am not putting myself with so much pressure. I am just reading so that I need not to cramp my head at the eleventh hour. (WOW, this is the first time I used an idiom in my blog!) I never wanted the same thing happened last year to repeat. EVER AGAIN!

Mum, I'm really sorry for not being available for every single day that you've called. Life is kinda terrible right now, I dunno why. I felt that I have so many other things to do even I usually finish my homework early. It's the feeling that makes me... I dunno, mum. Just stay with me, will you?
Love, son.

Monday, January 11, 2010

Wockay!

It's time for me to get busy with co-curricular activities again! First UP - choral speaking. Secondly, PBSM foot drill (I have to find enough members by the end this month so that I can finally bring good name to my boys whom are usually called 'sissies'. I hope I'll be able to prove the school that they are not!!!)

Then, I don't know when, Debates. As usual, I'll be the first speaker, Zhe Ying be the second and third... I wonder who?

Hmm... What else? Should I join Mighty Minds too? It's so cool for that crap to even come to life - PHYSICS! Meh, I know I suck at the subject but I love everything that relates to it. Haha, yeah I know - Imma nerd, ok? *winks*

Anyway - wish me best of luck so that I can juggle these things one final time.

THIS IS GONNA BE FUN!!!

Sunday, January 10, 2010

Canon in D, on C

Just when I thought that canon in C tuned up to D major is easier than dropped D tuning...

The quarter notes come in my guitar tabs and it's... really difficult to practice on it. The first few bars which I thought was difficult is simply NOTHING to me now, compared to the bars after the first page!!

I can't use a metronome as the ticking sound disrupts me even more. However, I ain't giving up. Since there are 4 students who can memorize the whole piece by heart (that was what my tutor told me: I've been teaching this piece for 5 years and only 4 students can memorize the whole piece. The middle part is really nice!) Then, after I am done with this piece, I will prove to my uncles that I can as well pluck, instead of strum nonchalantly. The chance will come! I believe in it.

Don't worry mum, I'm a good juggler of Time.

PS: I am not day-dreaming or showing off because some have belittled me before, but I am just proving to people that I can do the things I want to do. Determination is the key to success! I wish I have such courage for my Additional Mathematics and Physics!!!

Saturday, January 9, 2010

One week

That period is a little too much for me and I am uber alles glad that 5 days of my last first week of school has ended! I've finished all my homework yesterday and today (and tomorrow) I would have time to do something else. How nice...

Yesterday was the best that had ever happened in form 5 history in my class - we were celebrating the January babies birthdays: Hizairi, Yu-Xuan, Poghilan and Hamsalekkha. What a waste that I did not bring my camera!!!

The good thing that Francine told me yesterday was:
"We're having Secret Recipe's for February."

ARUNA!!!! WE CAN HAVE SECRET RECIPE FOR OUR BIRTH-MONTH!!! Hoorah!!

Meh, I shouldn't expect too much. I'll probably just go with the flow as my family members used to say to me.


Friends and family, stay with me. I have this final year and the 11 years of heavy bags, scoldings, laughings, cryings and most importantly - the whole INPUT will come to an end - my 'O level'. Please just support me. I need all of you.

Tuesday, January 5, 2010

Dear friends and family

I am sorry I can't find time to blog about my long absence since Christmas eve. It was an awesome time spent back there in Ipoh (saves for the nags of course, sorry Mum). i also realized that I've undergone some... spiritual changes in me? I am amazed as well - trust me!

Anyway, this could be my last post for this month or this year? I dunno. I just feel that 24 hours ain't enough now!!! Things are really getting at it's maximum difficulty and I really hope that I will survive this one last battle before screaming my lungs out at the end of THE day.

Co-curricular activities - not yet. Maybe middle of this month or next month. As I've told you people. I am very busy for the first semester every year since form 2.

Academics - today's the second day of school and I am already so busy with my homeworks and assignments, and most importantly, revisions. Alright, I'm off to go with my Physics revision and then, I'll practice my Canon for a while and sleep. Chao.
11.21pm