Loving Others

Matthew 5:43-48

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Love for Enemies

    ⁴³ “You have heard that it was said, ‘Love your neighbor and hate your enemy.’ ⁴⁴ But I tell you, love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you, ⁴⁵ that you may be children of your Father in heaven. He causes his sun to rise on the evil and the good, and sends rain on the righteous and the unrighteous. ⁴⁶ If you love those who love you, what reward will you get? Are not even the tax collectors doing that? ⁴⁷ And if you greet only your own people, what are you doing more than others? Do not even pagans do that? ⁴⁸ Be perfect, therefore, as your heavenly Father is perfect.

This is what I've learnt from my spiritual leader tonight. God just moved me so much to just speak to him about the way I worship in prayer group. It somehow just dawn on me the realisation that it was important that I speak to him, rather than to pretend everything is just normal. The one thing about me is, the way I worship is generally more "outward" and louder than others (being built in such mould in my church), but most of them in the hostel prayer group prefer the kind of absolute silence to be in tune with God (I've noticed that I was the only one worshipping my lungs out when they were all so silent)

However, my leader taught me that if what I do (i.e.: speaking through the Spirit or singing grace) would just make the corporate lose focus, I'd rather not do it, although that is my norm. Why? Because, we simply gather up for the same purpose. He taught me to be wise and humble in all my doings. So, I choose to lay down my norm, in order for everyone of us to benefit from the gathering, rather than a win-lose situation. "Be perfect, therefore, as your heavenly Father is perfect."

Lord, I uphold Thy words in my life and I surrender my life in Thy gracious hands. Make me teachable, Lord. In Jesus' name I ask, amen.

Kyrie eleison; Supplicanti parce, Deus.

"Always Remain Teachable and Humble!"

That was what I've heard someone in my half-dream, Mr. Samson, a miner said before we finished our conversation.

Earlier on, another person, Mr. Samuel, a guard for some London underground train, taught me this, "Do not release your visions, until you have received confirmation and answers from God. Keep praying for it, so that God shows an answer to you."

I may just say that these encounters are merely my imaginations but I would rather believe that this is indeed a spiritual intercession, or a spiritual connection with the Lord. Funny enough, I have always reminded myself to be humble and remain teachable, to grow even more, and faster than anything else but I somehow wonder, why does this line comes in again, exactly the next night when I knew of my five-fold ministry calling. True enough, today, I shared my testimony regarding my previous post to my church members during dinner and I did really learn so much that I don't know where should I start writing!

Today, after our second praise celebration, I asked David on how to start reaching out. He then taught me on a lot of things. There were many of the things he said, I did already know, but there was one thing that he said, really hit me, bullseye! He said, "Preach with love, let go of your ego. Remain teachable and humble. Remember this." David also told me one thing, which felt like a slap on my face. He told me that my say on "The Holy Spirit was feeling reluctant" was wrong and it was my own heart and my own patience that didn't push on for the complete healing to take place. "The Holy Spirit, wanted to test your patience," this was what David told me.

These are really the punch lines for the day. Indeed, God used these two "imaginery" people in my dream to teach me on certain things that my life needs to let go, needs to be repaired. Otherwise, I shall never grow. Then, Daniel started teaching already. He was telling me about our human mindset. The worldly mindset of "being influenced subconsciously". He said, there are some people do what others do, just because they don't want to be left out, whether worshipping in the worship team, or evangelising, because this is truly, not the right intention at all!

I believe he was speaking to me, indirectly, because there was once I asked him about joining the worship team, but he didn't answer. But God did tell me during that silence that he will answer my question someday. He only told me to wait. Although I didn't quite feel it that way, but perhaps, I believe in his (Daniel's) discernment of spirit which guided him in making his choices. Daniel's discernment is not by himself - it is from the Lord, and who am I to deny? Amen.

I thank God for today's dinner, which had become my punch lines for the night:
1. Influence and not be influenced.
2. For evangelists, icebreaking sessions are very vital.
3. Drop the ego. ALL of it, to serve the Lord, my God.
4. Do not argue during evangelism. It will tick people off and I will miss the chance of saving souls.

Kyrie eleison; Supplicanti parce, Deus.

Prayers answered and Evangelising as an Evangelist

Prayers answered:
Yes Lord, I thank You for such peace You have given to me today, Lord! You are truly my Rock, Jesus Christ!

So, today, guess what? Exam on New Year's Eve. Fundamentals of Accounting. I have only done the past year papers for 3 days, last week and I barely could retain any possible NEW things I've learnt, since I was so busy with other 3 subjects. In the end, I had only 1 day for each subject to revise and yesterday (Friday) I was reading ITS, and today was FOA.

All in all, I told God, "I surrender my life to You," and it was not answered. But I had faith in Him, of course. I slept at around 2am and I woke up at 10am, since my exam was on 2pm, dreaming of beautiful heavenly encounters too! So, the sleep was very comfortable and it seemed long.

When I woke up, I did what I was supposed to do by revising all of my Accounting workings and theories, expecting theories to come out like my previous semester's Introduction to Accounting (but I was disappointed after that when there were no theories were tested. But anyhow, I was satisfied!) all done in 1 hour 35 minutes. Then, I read the Bible. I somehow found peace in me and I did not get nervous.

Then, on my last 15 minutes, (as I was planning to leave hostel and off to my exam venue) I said, "God, I surrender my 15 minutes to You, God. Let Your will be done, God. Thank You, Jesus." I immediately got drunk with the Holy Spirit. I suddenly lost sense of exam stress and I went for exam on that condition. Feeling drunk with the Holy Spirit, until I stepped into the exam venue, my soul and spirit were sharpened. I already knew that God's hands were with me. I then continued singing grace to the Lord in my heart, for whatever calculation I was doing and thanking Him for every mistakes I found myself doing. As it ended, I just noticed that it was pure fun in the exam venue. I had no sense of excitement for the paper, or even sense of nervousness when I couldn't reconcile my answers. I was only focusing my mind on God. He was truly with me throughout the duration. I then came back to my hostel, smiling broadly, broader than ever. Honestly, I have never had such euphoria for exam before, ever in my life. Amen!

Evangelising as an Evangelist
Yesterday, during my church's House of Prayer for All Nations, (it is basically soaking session for our minds to be renewed and for us all to pray for the nation and share our visions that God has given us) I unexpectedly received my five-fold ministry calling - to be an evangelist. And yesterday, after dinner, my section overseer was talking a lot and teaching me a lot on how to be an evangelist, while not forsaking the other 4 aspects (i.e.: pastoral, apostolic, teaching and prophetic).

Today, after exam, I had a chance to evangelise to my friend, who was having his right hand sprained. I ministered healing under God's name yesterday and again today, and he said that it was 50% healed. I started evangelising to him, making him understand the underlying concept of Christianity - where we usually claim that Christianity is a relationship with God, and not a religion.

I spent about an hour before dining with him, talking about Christianity. Although he didn't acknowledge, at least he realized that I could perform healing under Lord Jesus' name and he couldn't. At least, now he knows a lot more of Christianity. Yes, in the end, he didn't get completely healed (it was very obvious that the Holy Spirit was reluctant already), at least, at least... He tasted a little bit of it. I'm glad that I managed to stir him, deep down in his heart. May God bless him. Amen.

Kyrie eleison; Supplicanti parce, Deus.

Intercession

Intercession - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Intercession

Intercession is the act of interceding (intervening or mediating) between two parties. In Christian religious usage, it is a prayer to God on behalf of others.

Public intercession done yesterday

Another public intercession done just 2 minutes ago

The more I grow fond of the Lord, the more I am focused and more confident in my prayers. Right now, I can really uphold the power of prayers and intercessions as my strongest weapon ever. Indeed, this is quite absurd for me to post my intercessions on my Facebook wall and tagging anyone who's in my mind, but yes. I believe that God moves even beyond this.


In short, I pray that everyone will be blessed with my intercessions. Thank you, Lord.

Kyrie eleison; Supplicanti parce, Deus.

Christmas and Thanksgiving

 Yes, I'm talking about Christmas season again. Although it has been 2 days since then because I was just tagged on Facebook with the interesting pictures in church and in my pastor's house during dinner on Christmas night.

Insight of the church, during our arrangement of new chairs

Photoshot taken when all things are done!

 These pictures were taken on Christmas eve, after the celebration of Christmas for the World Harvest Children Church. We were at first, unwrapping our church's Christmas gift of NEW red chairs, and then we ended up playing dodge balls with the balled sling wraps. It was seriously joyful seeing everyone playing with it and especially when Perez started cursing mildly in Malay, which made me ALMOST ROTLMHO - rolling on the floor laughing my heads off.

When everything has been done, we finally took a group photo (actually more than one, but I chose this as my featured photo in my blog) together. And this, people. Is my big family (though incomplete), born again from the same Father - Jesus.

My Spiritual Family, during Christmas and Thanksgiving dinner

 Then, on Christmas, I woke up and prepared myself to go to church for our Christmas praise celebration and I received my first gift from God, through Jimmy, another brother in Christ during the alter call - Jimmy imparted to my his gift of teaching and I immediately fell down flat on my back by the power of God and felt my heart and soul being renewed.

We had our lunch outside the church after everything was over and there I got a lot of presents - handmade gifts, from many of them. I was shocked and touched to receive so many of their heartfelt Christmas gifts. Though, these are just papers and they are so small and valueless to many of you out there, but these things mattered a lot to me. It really struck deep in my heart. I think from here onwards, I shall be having a mini box for myself - to keep all these memorable stuffs because I'm afraid if I just leave it unattended, I will end up throwing them away next year. This usually happens when I don't take care of my stuffs.

My Kinship: Tricia, Bong Yang and I

Later, I got back to my hut and slept. Planning to wake up at 5pm, to prepare to go and help out in my pastor's house during dinner that night but I woke up at 6pm instead. I felt literally useless at that point. Then, David (the guy in purple tee below) fetched me at 7pm and I went there and WHOA. The house is filled with so many people. Yes, the picture you see above, in a more homely environment are those people who went for the thanksgiving dinner. Honestly, I felt so home and them and ate like a king, as what my section overseer has said to me: "Tonight, we shall eat like kings!"

Although I wanted to help out by giving out food to them, I somehow was tempted to eat. Oh, screwed. Temptation again. Ha, ha. Sorry, folks! My bad. But anyway, we all had a lot of fun there, with 3 people snapping so many pictures, talked about casual things with the pastors, watching Shrek 4ever on HBO, laughed my heads off on some funny scenes which literally made everyone around me felt uncomfortable with my laughter.

What more can I say?

Exactly, what more can I say? All in all, I thank God for giving me such wonderful spiritual family and blessing me with these wonderful people around me. Thanks to everyone and now, we shall be equipping ourselves for the mysterious year ahead. God bless everyone. Amen.

Kyrie eleison; Supplicanti parce, Deus.

Exam Stress and Journey with God Almighty

I have been very busy with so many other programs recently to the extend that I do not have much time to study. I somehow felt that I wasted a lot of my time sleeping along the way as well. Well, even my bloody tears will not roll back the time for my to redo what I wanted to do, so, I better get myself equipped so long I still have the time to do so and don't worry and forever sing praises to the Lord. I need Him right now, more than ever.

I have given my life, my ENTIRE life, to Him and be His servant of righteousness already. All I can hope for is His grace for guiding me through this examination - perhaps, saving some souls along the way? This is interesting! And so, I believe in this:

Philippians 4:13

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¹³ I can do all this through him who gives me strength.

And I should never worry:

Matthew 6:25-34

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Do Not Worry

    ²⁵ “Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothes? ²⁶ Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? ²⁷ Can any one of you by worrying add a single hour to your life?    ²⁸ “And why do you worry about clothes? See how the flowers of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. ²⁹ Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. ³⁰ If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you—you of little faith? ³¹ So do not worry, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ ³² For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. ³³ But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. ³⁴ Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.
 

Kyrie eleison; Supplicanti parce, Deus.

Christmas - The Before and After Salvation Part of Me

I still remember, many years ago, I stayed up late for my dad to come back home, just to wish him Merry Christmas. Me, being a small child, running towards him on the carpark without my sandals on, and shouted MERRY CHRISTMAS, and hugging him was pretty pointless, now come to think about it. But, come to think of it, I have been looking forward to Christmas every year, without me noticing it, more than Chinese New Year and I strongly think it is because of my pretty heavy non-Chinese backgroud. Now, I do not say I'm from an English background, yeah. I'm just a mixture of both Malay and English.

But anyway, I didn't really know the true meaning of Christmas until this year. The real turning point in my whole entire life. Let's just see the before part of me: It was Christmas. I knew it was Jesus being born to the world, but I didn't remind myself of that. I pretty much, wasted more than what I have for my entire life, then. I mean, what was the point of me celebrating it, without knowing the true meaning of it? Well, at least as for Chinese New Year, I do, but also, I didn't embose it into my mind. So, can you see? I wasted a lot of time in my life - technically 18 years. I was foolish in being an atheist, then a deist (check the definitions out if you don't know) and now, I finally found my way back home. To the Lord. To the Promise Land.

Let's see now, what I have AFTER my salvation: I have received tons of visions for me to pray and meditate about, I do not fear anymore of any spirits that could intersect my line of sight (I always had discerning of spirits, even before accepting Jesus, but I didn't know what to do back then). I just command the spirits to leave and they shall obey. That's how I have transformed. I know where I sit - right hand side of the Throne, I know who is my Father - Jesus Christ, and guess what? I can even hear Him. The very major impact He has done in my life is this: Be double patient, be double forgiving, be double loving. Then, indirectly all negative feelings slowly being halved, and halved, finally to bits of nothingness. This is how I change.

Albeit the series of conflicts in my family, I somehow believe, He will do what He will do. Lord, let Your will be done, as how it is done in heaven. So, I don't have to worry about it. Being with Him, I have gained the six aspects of Jesus for myself, and I will treasure it, until the day I breathe my last breath on earth:

"Salvation

Restoration

Renewal

Healing

Deliverance

Abundance"

Truly, this is my greatest gift - six in One. I cannot find any other gifts in the world for a change. Thank you, Lord. You're always good!

Kyrie eleison; Supplicanti parce, Deus.

Pray, Fast, Eat

Amen! Let me update you guys on the bits I have in life right now. Yes, it's going to be about Christianity. It's going to be me talking about the conversations with my Father in Heaven. It's going to be visions that He gave me. Please bear in mind this, I am not trying to do any brain-washing. If you feel so, kindly exit. I don't want my intention to be mistaken as any sort of brainwashing.

So, here we go. On Friday when I called home for some issue that I somewhat forgot right now, I had the urge to go back home, amidst the pile of papers for me to do my reading - exam is coming! Anyway, my focus should be on Him, so I don't have to worry much. God promised me that for whatever situation I am having now, He shall help me through it. Amen!

That Friday night, I went to House of Prayers for All Nation (in short, HOPFAN) and there, I heard His voice also wanting me to go back home. So, I waited more for answers and minutes after that during the prayers, I heard one of my church mates confirmed the call from God (in Tongues). Then, He again asked me to pray for all nations and fast during my prayers, so I asked Him, "How, God? Teach me." Immediately, another friend there confirmed my fasting during prayers (in Tongues). Bear in mind that this is not of cult whatsoever.

1 Corinthians 12:7-11

New International Version (NIV)

 ⁷ Now to each one the manifestation of the Spirit is given for the common good. ⁸ To one there is given through the Spirit a message of wisdom, to another a message of knowledge by means of the same Spirit, ⁹ to another faith by the same Spirit, to another gifts of healing by that one Spirit, ¹⁰ to another miraculous powers, to another prophecy, to another distinguishing between spirits, to another speaking in different kinds of tongues,^[a] and to still another the interpretation of tongues.^[b] 11 All these are the work of one and the same Spirit, and he distributes them to each one, just as he determines.

(I prefer NIV to NKJV for public read because NKJV requires real contemplation of words and almost everything there is in the Mid-English.)

So, here is it. I asked God for signs and He gave me the gift of interpretation of Tongues that night. I asked Tricia, after the prayers, how to fast and she told me there are many ways to fast. I wanted to do the full fast of 7am to 7pm, of no solid food. But then again, Tricia advised me not to, because exam is coming near and I need to focus in my studies too. So, I reduced it into a lunch fast. I use the time to eat, to pray and sing praises to the Lord. My prayers are for the nations in the world, more renewal of mind, unwell people be cured and more salvation.

On Saturday, (my first day of fasting) during dinner where I break my fast and thank God for His spiritual food as my lunch, I went to Johnny's to eat with Granny and did a lot of (WINDOW) shopping, until she complained that her back ached. That night, I laid my left hand on her back and prayed silently. It didn't cure until today, I prayed again and immediately, she was healed. See how silent prayers work?

As for my Sabbath yesterday, I went to a church with my friend's family, since I do not know where it is. There, I was rebuked for my faith in Him (just like what He told me before I left KL) but let's just drop this issue. It is not good to speak bad of anything.


For these few days, as I was praying earnestly, He gave me visions and verses to proclaim and all are of salvation. I believe that once He gave me something to meditate on, those things will always come to pass. Amen.

I believe, right now. This is my testimony, that I could share it openly to the public to be blessed.

Kyrie eleison; Supplicanti parce, Deus.