2: inadequate to or unsuitable for a particular purpose
Folks, that is the definition from Merriam Webster Online dictionary of the key word I am about to talk about.
I have recently seen a person who feels (I think I should say... appears to be) incompetent with me and the reason is rather obvious. It (I wish not to reveal the gender here) somehow feels there is a necessity for it to be better than me, or else, on par with me. Now, let me tell you what I have been through the past few years of my short life on Earth; I was more or less like this person depicted in this post and one day my school counsellor comes to me (instead of me going to him) and he requested for an appointment with me because he could somehow see that my psychological behavior is really unfit to being a positive thinker. What he did was to listen to me attentively with all my problems and then he advised me these sentences which I would never forget although time may stop:
"Change I MUST into I TRY," and
"One mountain is always higher than the one that we see here."
And those 2 sentences had changed my perspective about competency altogether. Then, it came to this point where I think,
"Well, at first I thought I was jealous of you for getting such good results all the time and me, only an average Joe but, hey. I don't attend tuitions, unlike you. I am far more active compared to you. I know more general things compared to you. I could surely speak better than you. I could find more things I could do more than you could. AND I BELIEVE YOU TOO, COULD DO A LOT OF THINGS I AM NOT CAPABLE OF. So, I don't have to envy you. I respect you. We trade knowledge instead. That's better, don't you think?"
Let's get back to this main topic. As I was saying earlier, this person who feels incompetent with me MUST be knocked on its head to let it know that I don't give an atom of care about your sunken result. So, spare your tendons and energy to keep turning back to see if I am seeing your sunken results, whatever it may be. Your folio or test results because I am not bothered a single bit.
Somehow, I now have a theory: Wherever new places I go, I must make a justification (or rather a warning) to them that I am not bothered about other people's results and I am not ever interested to compete anymore. I don't wanna end up like who I used to be last time. I am who I am now that you all see today. No more petty depressions for no reasons.
I might sound bitter in this post, I apologize for that because I really am angry about this person and deep inside me, pitying it for having such mindset which would really ruin your mental health. I know I should just confront this person, but like I've said in Tumblr, "I'll give that person one more chance..." hence I will.
To you, if you're reading. Please. Stop whatever you're doing. You might think it's funny, but I totally despise of it wholeheartedly. Thanks.
Kyrie eleison; Supplicanti parce, Deus.
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