NUFFY

Tuesday, October 26, 2010

HOLY EPIC!

1. Dad drove me to school. I heard Overture to the Light Calvary by Von Suppe. I was air-orchestrating throughout the whole overture. The aura was so awe-inspiring! IF any of you ever loved classical pieces, I recommend you to hear this piece as a kick-start. Give yourself 10 minutes, close your eyes and enjoy the music.

2. In school, the counselor said, "Alright, all these students are required to go to the lecture room as soon as the assembly ends as the principal would wish to meet all of you. For those who gets excellent results for trials this time." After a long while, then my name was called. I was surprised why I was not called earlier, as I got 8th in form. But Aruna told us that she saw one of our teachers having the same list. It seemed that they sort us out according to number of Distinctions we have, A+.

3. In the lecture room, our principal was talking with a very different tone which I just had to hear all his words. His main advise to all 45 of us was, "Don't lose focus" and he used the analogy of a marathon runner. At intervals, Francine and I gazed at each other and whispered things like, "I can't believe we are already here, in the final lap!"
"I feel like crying now," thanks to our principal's speech which was really heart-touching
There was one part he said about our batch is his batch that follows him right till the end. He came to the school in 2005, we came to the school in 2006. Now, 2010 is our last year and March 2011 would be his retirement. That was pretty sad and proud as well. I hope he'll be fine with it, although it's all fated.

At the end of the session, we shook hands with the principal and the senior assistant of academics and I think I was the only one who hugged both of them.

4. Gloria finally confronted in me about our long-held misunderstanding and I found out she was right about something, "That's true that you can have so many close friends but it's hard to find true friends." Now THAT was something I have to applaud on. She was right. All these while, I was being close to so many people (or would be rather close, I suppose?) and I didn't feel much appreciated as compared to my very few true friends. Regardless of anything, I would turn back to these true friends and tell them almost everything. Instead of shutting it up and move on which I do that to my close friends. "Fighting is normal. That happens all the time. It can't be avoided," Gloria added.

5. I've noticed that after Gloria is no longer with her previous gang, she is hell of a better person. It was so easy talking to her now compared to her old self. That's her problem, she gets carried away easily. My problem is I don't care what others think of me. That's why I am normally myself, regardless of how close that entity is to me. I'm still with the childish, cheerful, bitchy attitude wherever you see me in the streets. Just another thing that Gloria told me of, her motto, if you must. "If you can't bear the worst of me, you can't deserve the best of me." And my true friends have bore with me and have deserved from me too. I'm proud to tell that I am very grateful to have them, uber alles!

7. Dad fetched me back. While I was on the way to meet him, I was wet. I got home with a holy wet body. It's been long since I've done that. I missed the days.

8. My newborn niece is finally one month old. Sadly, I forgot to bring my camera to her place of this "full moon celebration" for babies, so far that I know of. I pretty much think it's a Malaysian culture. Is it? Well, the Malays (and Indians?) have it too.

9. It's 4 in the morning right now and I am not able to sleep.

How epic could this day be compared to my lame days of my seventeen breathing years of my life? MAN I just wish I could hit the rewind button and try perfecting every single flaw in this 24-hour time frame.

Friday, October 22, 2010

Phoenix



Just in case if you have no idea what's the resemblance of a phoenix, it's resurrection. Yeah, so the above pictures were really cool. Well, it's not pornographic. It's pure art! Really clear angle. Yeah I stumbled upon these shots while I was searching for pictures under "Phoenix resurrection".


It's been a long while since I've updated this blog. It's getting dead, for now or for ever. I dunno. Let time do the talking. Even I myself have changed. I'm not the usual kid next door anymore. I am getting darker and dimmer inside. But I enjoy being dark inside. It gives me real serenade, surprising, eh? I could say for now, only my classmates and granny understand me most. Only my classmates know me inside out. How I act, what I mean by my actions and stuffs like that.

My dad, I pity him. He gets intimidated easily by me nowadays. Sorry, dad. It's not that I hate you. I still love you. It's just that things were not the same anymore. Mom, please don't be silent. I still need your advices. It's not you I dislike. It's your radical family members. I understand, it sucks to be in your shoes. To side both parties. I think you should learn like me too: liberalism. Yeah. Cool, huh?

Well, pardon me for getting side-tracked. I was thinking of just telling you that I've laid my plans for the big exam now. Time will tell when I will move. With arms on my body, I'm ready to fight.. I'm just waiting for paper ghosts to come and I shall banish them all. 23rd November. Pretty ironic, eh? It was mom's birthday when my trial started. Now, it was Popo's death anniversary when my exam will start next month. Significantly coincidental. Or should I say, coincidentally significant? Ha, ha.

Alright, leisure time for me now... Lambrusco, here I come!

Thursday, October 14, 2010

Would you rather?

So, this was a mini icebreaker game I played in SMK Puteri. There was a seminar held by this Taylor's college and they had this game, called would you rather. Now, I ask myself again because surely I choose to be healthy than sick.

"Would you rather, be sick (go right) or be healthy (go left)?"

Before this, there is no doubt that I would go to the left. But now, I choose to go to the right. Why? Well, the reasons are absolute, aren't they?
My mom's coming down tomorrow just to visit me, to basically see whether I am still alive or not.
My dad's dead worried about me, and coincidentally he is coming down from the UK next week too.
My cousin sister called me yesterday and asked, did I do the blood test in the clinic (which I did not do out of reluctance, anyway I am fine already!).

I don't care being sick and poor if I could have all these for me. Well now people, don't regard me as a person who seeks attention, as claimed by my self-righteous uncle, because... Although I do know they love me and crap stuffs like that, who in their right mind as a child would not want something like this? I don't know about you readers out there, maybe you are too grown up and busy with your lives and forgot about your inner self, and have been deafen by those factors that you could no longer hear your inner child voice calling for help.

Yes, I do know, life moves on. But if I could choose, I choose to be sick whole year long, or even choose to die of a bad sickness. At least I know my family members would come for me and I could see them on daily basis too. Believe me on this, NOTHING could be better than that. NOTHING.

Thursday, October 7, 2010

Suspected?

Doctor: Well from the symptoms you've mentioned, this could be suspected dengue. It's ok, if you see your condition isn't any better by next week, come back here and we'll do some blood test to verify.

Well, actually even if he didn't say that, I pretty much know that it could possibly be dengue. My fever has never lasted more than 2 days. Now, I'm thinking far again. One possibility of death before this was bronchitis and now dengue. Both of these are very much better than any other scary ways to die. Benjamin asked me before, "Are you afraid to die?" I said, "Nope, I am only afraid of the way I die." Dengue for me, is considered ok. I'm pretty much optimistic here. Mom, don't worry. I surely would try to continue living, if God speeds.

After Biology test tomorrow, I would have to stay back tomorrow for an hour, to discuss a surprise for someone important to our class. After that, it depends if I feel terrible, I'd have to drive to General Hospital and if not, I can go to my Accounting class. Well, let's hope for the best then.

PS: Miss Zalilah's spirit has uplifted me today to go to school. She's always sick and yet so dedicated and because of her, I was present for English and Add Math. Thanks teacher!

Tuesday, October 5, 2010

Wish List

I am wondering for one thing, why no one asks me what would I want for my achievement this time. The ironic part here is whenever I don't think of asking anything, my family members would ask, "Huat what do you want for your achievement?" and now when I want some things, no one is asking me at all. Weird, eh? Well, pardon me for being a buffoon to wait for it to happen. I think it's time for me to get back to ground zero and get the things I want all by myself. Well, here's my (nonsensical) wish list.

1. Enough money for orchestra night-out with dad on 30th October (RM114)
2. Danger Days album by My Chemical Romance (RM40+)
3. USB port for my car, to plug my mp3 in (RM60+)
4. Laptop (RM2000+)

I know, I am being non-realistic. Well, anyhow, everyone has the rights to dream right?

Saturday, October 2, 2010

A flush

Yes, I would say I've got a flush, in poker. If my trial examination is based on poker cards. Thanks to all teachers who'd bore with my madness in class and funny questions which sometimes make them go blank first... And thanks for their blessings too. Not to forget, my friends who'd been bearing with me like HELL with my five-year-old attitude in class and explaining to me certain things I was not sure at all. I hope they get good results for the real big huge enormous exam too!

Physics especially. I've never gotten anywhere beyond 70 last year until Pn. Jamilah stumbled in my life this year. To all other teachers, thanks. I didn't dare to thank them face-to-face because I am sure I will cry by doing so. They've such huge impacts in my life this year. I think I probably will be lost if they were not who they were!

History on the other hand, I have to thank 3 entities.
1. Charlene for asking me to try answering paper 2 although I didn't know a single fuck. Surprisingly, I managed to get 72/100 for that paper and 75% as grand total. Without her, I would've gone out of the hall that afternoon.

2. God for opening my pea-sized brain to hear my teacher's voice in my head to answer the questions. It was all based on her voice and a little of my friends' voices.

3. Pn. Vimala of course! I heard her voice explaining to me what are those all about, although not fully... I was glad I heard her voice. Although later that afternoon I heard very weird noises (probably due to the heavy rain that time) talking loudly. It was as hectic as flight of the bumblebee, only this is not on a regular tempo.

Yesterday I've found another verse in the bible saying about the power of believing in something, or specifically, have faith in God, which has been proven true in my case. Last time, I've read it in Matthew. Now, Mark said the same thing too.
Mark 11:22-24
"Have faith in God," Jesus answered. "I tell you the truth, if anyone says to this mountain, 'Go, throw yourself into the sea, and does not doubt in his heart but believes that what he says will happen, it will be done for him. Therefore I tell you, whatever you ask for in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours."

Yes people, although I am a Taoist (which my History teacher has proven my point that it isn't even a religion, but a belief which made me shouted at her: Yes teacher! I agree to it!!, when she was explaining it to Pn. Asriah) it doesn't mean I can't read other books, right?

Tao Te Ching 71:1
Knowing ignorance is strength,
Ignoring knowledge is sickness.

OK, readers. Pardon me for being over-religious. I am not being a Pharisee. PLEASE!
-k-

PS: Aruna told me yesterday that there was a girl whom I met in the Sunway Scholarship bitched about me in a tuition where Aruna was there as well. She said to her friend and Aruna over-heard, "Ooi is very arrogant and acts as though he knows everything. He speaks English with slang too!"

To hell I care about her. I don't speak to her anyway. In fact, I don't even know who she is. Let her keep grudges in herself and I, stay contented without caring of those words.

PSS: If you'd forgotten, -k- means end in Morse code.